I feel so much better today after writing the article I published on here last night. I am free from my own inhibitions :) I think that in some ways, my fear of grabbing ahold of ME has actually helped me to become the multidimensional woman that I am in the sense that I have tried finding myself and that *thing* that I am passionate about through so many different avenues which led to so many varying experiences that I wouldn’t otherwise have had.
When I started college, I was a psychology major. Ended up getting my degree in accounting. Went back to school to get a second degree in Theology then started preparing to take my LSAT to apply to law school. But after dropping my psychology major, losing interest in my career path after less than 4 years of doing corporate taxes and accounts management, starting a ministry and my drive disappearing and changing my mind about law school, I felt like I’d never find me. I’d never find my *thing* and so I settled into giving every waking moment of my life to my husband, my kids, and my clients but doing that left a part of me unfulfilled.
Now that I have found that *thing* in fitness (which is oddly the one thing I always TOTALLY avoided haha), I’ve never felt so alive. I have never been THIS passionate about anything and it’s refreshing — it’s motivated me to rediscover myself and to get to know me all over again… to figure out what makes me tick and to be true to myself – to be a woman … and to be that woman to everyone around me, rather than being the woman everyone around me seems to need me to be. Thanks to everyone who commented and reached out since last night to let me know that they love me no matter “who” I am and that I’m not alone in feeling this way. I appreciate you guys!
So I’m exhaling. And moving forward :)