I wish I could say SCREW IT and throw in the towel, convincing myself that I don’t care quite this much about my health, but I can’t. I’m not sure if I’m totally sure if that’s fortunate or unfortunate right now LOL All those planks Tuesday (which, when I went back over my tally ended up being WAY less than I thought — like 120 less, which actually makes me feel like not as much of an idiot than I felt like before, but makes me question my accounting skills LOL) made for a very SORE Kathleen yesterday. I explained my “process” in a comment on my “Mamavation: I’m Such a DORK!” post:
At first I did several of them — well like 3 — every few minutes with a couple of minutes between them; after a while, I started doing just one MAYBE two at the most every few minutes, I’d say probably 15-20 minutes I’d do them lol I started getting tired and my body was tight so I started doing them with my butt either UP in the air or my body closer to the floor and instead of holding myself using my shoulder muscles, I started leaning LOL I THOUGHT I managed to get almost right at 200 but I think what I did when I saw she said repeat them, I made a line and started the new set without finishing the first but somehow confused myself or something; I don’t know, but when I went back over my sheet, it was actually a TOTAL from both sets of 78.
Those 78 must have had a time-release attack mechanism because yesterday’s sore had NOTHING on today’s! It didn’t seem as bad at first when I was DOING them, but when I woke up yesterday I was SOOO sore in certain areas — but this morning was even worse. I don’t know why but today EVERYTHING is sore — my arms, legs, abs, back (OHHHHH my back!), EVERYTHING. Now I’m just trying to MOVE at all haha I can’t decide if my arms or my abs hurt worse today… I can barely even pick up my arms, which doesn’t make Zoe too happy because I am not even considering lugging her around today!!
You have know idea how much I want to just give up; who would care, really? But I look back over the last two years at how many times I’ve started and given up (ironically, mainly due to overdoing it and getting severely sore; I’m apparently not a fast learner…) and I know if I don’t stick this out, I’m going to look in the mirror two years from now and be even more disgusted with what I see and more importantly, how I feel. This is the first time I’ve ever faced such a grueling challenge (or at least I thought it was… blah lol) without being intimidated. When I thought we were supposed to be doing such treacherous work, I honestly didn’t complain (seriously, I didn’t — you can check my tweet stream!) I immediately told myself, “OKAY, SELF! LET’S GET IT!” I’ve been more motivated with the Mamavation sistahood than I EVER was on my own, that’s for sure…
Even though I did more than I was actually supposed to, I’m sort of glad because I mean aside from making a fool of myself I am now forced to see how much I want this new lifestyle — how much I care about my health. Do I want it so badly that I will keep up with Leah’s orders despite it being painful, or will I slack off because it’s not comfortable? I can’t truthfully answer that question at this point, because I haven’t seen any workouts specifically ordered for today so I’ve been able to take it easy. I got my housework done by MAKING myself do it, so I know the will power is there, but housework isn’t optional — with five kids, you can’t function without organization and cleanliness. So I guess that’s an open question right now… I’m hoping I go hard no matter what but talk is cheap. I’m about to see what I’m really made of… but secretly hoping I don’t see any planks or crunches come through the #Mamavation hashtag for the finalists today!
I’m going to do some walking on the treadmill for now and try to stretch as best as I can, but even that hurts :( Please keep spreading the word and VOTING for me to be one of the next Mamavation moms by visiting http://bit.ly.com/vote4katjrobertson and be sure to enter the $30 Walmart gift card giveaway when you vote!
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