Mamavation: I’m Pledging the Sistahood! :)

It’s pretty shameful to admit how many times in the last two years I have challenged myself to become more physically fit… and yet here I am, four — yes F-O-U-R — pounds lighter than I was 2 years ago… and just as flabby and *ewww* as I was just a few months after Zoe was born. It’s not just about looks though. I need to be healthier. I can still get out in the yard and turn flips (I used to be in gymnastics) and run around with the kids, but certainly not for long! I do a couple of cartwheels and my head starts spinning… run and do a roundoff and I’m totally out of breath. Not to mention how uncomfortable I am. Don’t get me wrong. I still know I’ve got it. Most days, anyway… :) The problem is, my belly nor my arms know that… and even though I feel beautiful and confident, I try not to look at either of those areas with any type of frequency LOL And if I’m going to be completely honest, there are days where I feel totally gross and ugly.

*Break for a Zoe intermission*

I looked over and saw Zoe struggling a little… I said, “Zoe you wanna go to the potty? Come on! Mommy will come with you!” She shook her head from side to side and said, “No, I go in my Pull Up.” Swell. So much for potty training. LOL

*Now back to our regularly scheduled programming*

Okay, so now where was I? Oh yeah – the arms and belly thing. There are clothes I won’t wear now (like pretty much anything form fitting or without a sleeve is OUT) and most of the time, I feel awkward in my skin. I’m not used to having so much excess weight and I have to say it really annoys me when people say I’m crazy and that I look great because it’s not always about how you look to other people — it’s how I feel. I hate how it feels to walk because no pants seem to fit quite right. I hate how I feel when I have to do something that requires a lot of energy because I just don’t have any. The kids ask me to do things and my body aches because I have Fibromyalgia and I’m not taking care of me the way I should and all the empty promises I keep making to myself aren’t helping.

I need the benefit of accountability — and although I love and adore my readers, you guys quite frankly have sucked in that department. Y’all forget about my self-challenges as quickly and easily as I do! LOL!!! I’m totally joking… well, okay, I’m sort of joking… :) The point is, I’m pledging to join the sorority of women who will all but bully me into getting my act together because let’s face it — this is my health we’re talking about and if I don’t have that, what can I ever really have? I also applied to be one of the next Mamavation Moms (check that video out here: My Mamavation Mom Campaign #7 Application) which I can’t become without your help so be sure to see that post and start tweeting for me!

I would love to have some of you on board this time — seriously. Dropping a comment and saying you’d love to is nice, but we’ve been there and done that. This time, let’s follow through because whether or not I become one of the next Mamavation Moms, I still have 40 pounds to lose before I can have that hot mama body that Zoe completely destroyed reach my target “healthy” weight for a person my height and build. Let’s connect and let’s do this! No one can make it happen but ourselves and each day we sit around and do nothing, we’re cheating/robbing ourselves, which is just stupid. So, it’s after midnight but I feel inspired to be active and all it took was concentrating on all the positives that will come with the results of a healthier lifestyle! Someone, somewhere in the world is doing a cardio workout right now — I think I’ll join them! :) Next year’s Christmas picture will look like this (or better!)